Archive for June, 2008

Jun-12-2008

The Devil and Me Makes Three

There are pathways through life and like a single candle in an eternal darkness we each seek to make our mark. We strive to contrast our surroundings never realizing there are shades of gray. Some people instinctively know their way while others stumble in the night. It is at those times when darkness reaches out a hand and reveals it is only a shield from reality. When we realize we must face the world as our own person and not what others want us to be, we falter. Humanity likes to neatly label feelings. Confusion and adolescence are only a few names for realization. To survive you must reach out and take what is offered. Fight to be uncovered from the darkness and the face the light of days. Ignore the rays of the sun that urge you to follow their way of thinking. Then you will have made your mark by being an individual.

Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

luna

another night
slides down the wall,
caressing the crevices
and quiet corners.
an invalid,
in a beautiful bed,
i observe
night’s lengthy
and lonely descent.
i am allowing myself
to be abused
by insomnia’s underworld,
but yet i feel
somewhat blessed
to be best friends
and the devoted witness
of every lunar movement.
Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

King of Halloween

If I could be anything besides human I’d be an 8 Foot owl…. I’d be able to turn my head all the way around… and not worry about parking… and anyone I don’t like gets a present sent airmail….You know you’d think in the modern era of technology and cloning they’d be able to create one of them. It would be awesome to own one as well as be one. You could ride them like a horse… just think about Halloween… get on your owl with a carton of eggs and you’ll be the king of Halloween…
Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

Intuition

i have this
gut
feeling,
like there’s
something
in the air
around her,
telling me
to look harder,
closer,
beneath the surface,
almost
like some variety
of prophesy
telling me
she’d be
worth the energy.
she has
those sort
of ocean foam
eyes that
seem
to pierce
the soul.
i wonder
what it is
shes sees.
i want to know
all that
she knows.
Posted under KT Jong
Jun-12-2008

The Summer of Four Foot Two

When girls meant ‘yuck’
and friends were new
Dreams were unshattered
and worries few
When recess was too short
and life too long
Decisions came easy
without the need to belong
When storks delivered babies
and passions weren’t so strong
Friendships were unbroken
right was right, wrong was wrong.
When farewell meant just for summer
and real friends didn’t part
The fun went on forever
and never left a broken heart

Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

illusion of future

The eye-blue sky
is showing off
all of its seventy-six
degrees
as the barely-there breeze
brushes fragments of autumn
off of the sidewalk.
Yellows and reds are only
momentary,
mindless illusions
of future,
and for the moment
they are serving
to flavor this Indian Summer

Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

I see him everywhere
I spend a lot of time trying not to be “that guy”
Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

I drive way too fast to worry about cholesterol
Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

I don’t know anything about Proteins.
Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

Hidden Tangents

Sparks of electrical pulses surge ceaselessly connecting the world putting a tangible value on transcendentalism… 

one thought. 

it’s a little treasure I found locked in the back of my mind that I tripped backward head over foot trying to find sleep. 

i get scared that there are cobwebs that shroud those treasure chests. They lie hidden in a corner of my mind like a forgotten LaCrosse jacket with my name stitched in cursive from high school that I look at only when moving thing around the attic, searching with a flashlight. Even though I feel sad to know these places of my mind aren’t in regularly visited, it’s also like the jacket. It’s only meant for those brief moments of springing intense happiness on me. Things will do that for me. It’s those bursts of happiness, trivial to some, that tie together the mundane of the everyday.

Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

fill time up

leaves
colored tea-stained
circle like a cyclone.
it is a transparent
explanation about how
nothing stays the same.
we sit behind the building
on a cold bench and exchange
idiosyncratic observations
about how brittle leaves behave.
we banter about the display
of the world to fill time up
because we cannot talk of love.

Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

Fate’s Tangled Web

A long time ago
Someone once said
Fate is a tangle
Follow one thread
I’ve finally sorted
Through knot after knot
Picked a thread
Followed it to the top
It lead me to you
To your smiles and cheer
You made me revalue
Things i used to hold near
Fate is a tangle
Follow one thread
Without you here
I know I’d be dead

Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

Gino’s Soundtrack of Life

I believe that there’s a reason for each meeting, every chance encounter, and coincidence even though its usually not realized. The evolution on Man’s mind and spirit is quickened by the exercise of seeking out the meaning, the reasons, or the lesson learned.
My diner chit chat with Dika last night was the latest I was pondering. Besides good karma and a bowl we shared thoughts from California Redwoods to She-Ra the Princess of Power. Back to the reason… Dika mentioned a movie she’d thought I may find interesting, Wonder Boys. The story was excellent and I recommend it to any fan of eccentric writers (let’s face it, that’s just about everyone reading this now) But it was the soundtrack of the movie that made me love it. Leonard Cohen, John Lennon, Van Morrison, and a lot of Dylan. I think every good story should have a good soundtrack. As my own story of life writes itself there’s a constant soundtrack in my head. Sometimes it’s the Beastie Boys, Sublime, or the Theme to Superfly, it’s constantly changing depending on my mood, environment, and the laws of nature. The unfolding story of life helps me realize that it’s a ride not a race. And every good ride needs good music. That’s why you’d go on the Gravitron instead of the teacups at Great Adventure. Sure you’re going to the same level of gyroscopic nausea from both but in the Gravitron you can Jam to 80′s hair band music so loud you can’t hear the pale kid next to you puking on himself as it sticks to him for 3 minutes and 32 seconds until the ride finally stops. Ok maybe gravitron isn’t the best ride to compare life to.
So what was the importance of my Mozzarella stick meeting? I think it was to come away with this story … It’s about rival gangs of Queens. Back in the early ninties there was a turf war going on. The battle was for the Pear tree. When ever the pears came in season the Squirrels would pull them off their branches, take one bite then drop them to the ground, callously wasting the entire pear. This would of course make them inedible, (even though the slow kid up the block kid must have got dared to eat one of those nasty old pears that was one day rotting on the lawn) So the enraged rival gang… let’s call them the Dikettes (to protect the innocent) would climb that tree a month before the pears were ripe and swipe them from the squirrels…
I thought on the situation for a while, and tried to figure out who was the hero and who was the villain. It’s easy in a story like She-Ra where you that the evil forces of Hordak are the bad guys. How ever in our little tale I think you could focus and make either one our victim. The poor squirrels without enough to eat for the long winter (summer?) ahead or the rabid little rats ruining all the fruit for the children in the neighborhood. It’s more like a Quentin Tarantino movie, without a true hero. Where the bad guys are the good guys, and you don’t know who’s the hero. Did the Dikettes take the fruit for spite? Did the squirrels laugh as they took one bite and let the rest fall to its death? Is a day old half squirrel eaten pear ok if you kiss it up to God?
I’m not sure I have answers, but I certainly know that If I were to be part of the pear swiping gang the Theme music to the Pink Panther would be playing as I snuck up the tree….
This post brought to you by the letter I for Insomnia
and the number 420
Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

Emotional Backpack

i know
you don’t
carry the weight
of what was
around with you
the way i do.
i hope at least
i earned
a fragment
of your sadness
and perhaps
a sleepless night

Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

What we are today comes from thoughts of yesterday and our present thoughts build our life of tomorrow; Our life is the creation of our mind -Buddha

Posted under Quotes
Jun-12-2008

Being a Best Man is all about a good speech

Hello everyone. My name is Gene and today I have the Honor of being Mike’s Best Man. First I want to thank both the bridesmaids and groomsman for helping make this wedding a wonderful & memorable occasion. Each one of you put in a tremendous amount of time and effort and as everyone can see you helped create a wonderful event! (START APPLAUSE.) And I can’t continue without saying how beautiful Mora looks tonight. She’s the perfect bride… isn’t she?
I also want to thank all of you who have traveled from out of state or the country, to join Mike and Mora on this special day- it’s amazing how far people will go for an open bar. Your presence is truly appreciated and the wedding would not be the same without each of you here.
I think everyone agrees that it was a beautiful wedding. Unfortunately, the downside is you have to listen to me speak for a few minutes. Mike, I personally want to thank you for the opportunity you’ve given me today and especially that you have finally admitted after all these years that I am in fact the “best man”.
A little history about Mike and I- In 7th grade my family moved down the block from the Cannons- Mike was the first kid I met in the neighborhood… From that point on we we’re close to inseparable… We were a good team…Mike had the greatest talent for figuring out how to get us into trouble… and it was my job to figuring out how to get us out… We also worked together at just about every teenage job you can imagine… We were paperboys, gas station attendants, worked at the car wash together, and our favorite– the beer distributor……ahhhh, all that beer, I mean, um, hard work and diligence- this is where we built our work ethic. Besides working hard outside of school Mike graduated 11th in our senior class, and in very close race, was voted best hair, ironically the entire right side of his head was shaved off…
During our college years, we attended different schools. Mike landed himself at University of Scranton, in Pennsylvania, where I would go and visit him on the weekends. At Scranton, Mike met many of the friends that are here with us tonight, and I think they will all agree with me since Mora has made it this far If I start telling stories from his college years I might scare her away on her wedding day. For the sake of Mike’s honeymoon I’ll keep them quiet.
After college, Mike decided to move to California. I, was of course, sad to see him go. But I knew it was the right decision when he turned to me one day before he left and said, “California is where my dreams are waiting for me” And Apparently, he found his dream. He met Mora…Mora, you make Mike happier than I have ever known him to be and I thank you for that. Please take care of him- he needs it. In truth, I couldn’t have asked for a better friend. Mike has always been more like a brother to me than a best friend. I can only hope that I have been half the friend to Mike that he has been to me.
Before I finish my speech, I’d like to ask you both to do something for me… Mora, I would like you to place your hand, palm side down on the table in front of you- Now, Mike, place “your” hand on top of Mora’s hand. Mike, want you to remember this very moment Because this is the last time in your life, that you will ever have the upper hand.
Finally, it gives me great pleasure to invite each of you to stand, raise your glasses with me, and offer the new Mr. and Mrs. Cannon a toast of congratulations! Here’s to a new beginning- a life of happiness, health, adventure and love! – To you both

Posted under Best Man Speech
Jun-12-2008

A wink and a wish.

she’s on top
and i’m under.
we flip-flop
when it’s over
we lie and we love.
we profess, and cry
it’s never enough.
how is it
that we are
so successful
at being failures
to each other?

Posted under gt
Jun-12-2008

Mask of the Impostor

A faded memory haunts
A small unvisited room
In the back of her mind
Closed in a book, unread
The volume it fills
Would be too heavy
To carry if written
Instead held on the shoulders of the past
One night, can show you the world
Connecting vibrations
One moment, eyes locked
Can be a life time lived
A swirl of coincidence
Opens the book
Unfolding the story
Almost forgotten
Pleasure yields to pain
As truth shines
Tears rain
Memories are too ephemeral

Posted under gg
Jun-12-2008

The Good Fight

I’ve lived a lot in my 21 years
Seen a lot and cried many tears
Bound by fortune, beholden to fate
Rescued by love, thwarted by hate
I walk my path, on the Earth I tread
At the end of the journey I will be dead
In between I must figure it out
Truth, Strength and Love I can’t live without
Fight the good fight as the warriors say
Die the good death on its appointed day

Posted under O'Leary
Jun-12-2008

Party in the Sky

Party in the Sky
It’s 6:14 am. Mike woke me a 5:30 today
There is no definition on what a person is. But what separates Mike from my fatal vision of The AfterMIKE (a way to measure time, which is much like aftermath, but way more gnarly.) is the SOUL. The Aura of a soul can not be faked, plagiarized or facsimiled. Staring or simply window shopping through Mike’s eyes you could tell that. He was both a Warrior and a Poet.
My excitement for the Future is waning. Its seems like I am watching my life on ABC’s After school Special. I’m the scared friend who wanders through the whole episode blaming himself even though everyone tells him he shouldn’t . I talked out loud to Mike whenever I am alone. For some reason this seems perfectly logical to me. Just like we were sitting in the O’Leary Mobile.
I am now 22 years old. Every person has something that scars them the most over their lives. For me I think ( and pray) that it just happened. I still have another 2/3 of my life to live. When I go to heaven will I remember Mike? Will his features still be etched in my mind so detailed as they are when I shut my eyes? Is going to heaven like getting off a plane in the Airport. You gotta look around to see who’s picking you up. I’ll be an old man by then, maybe Mike won’t want to pick me up. He will already have explored the universe without me. I wish we could do it together. He’s the first of my brothers to go. He’s got to be a little lonely for one of us.
Follow Up:
7 years since writing this. Another ¼ of my life passed by. I read it and realize that Mike isn’t lonely anymore. I’ve had the bad luck of losing more of our friends, while he’s enjoyed the good fortune of having them added to his party. I still wonder how it’s going to go down in the end. Will everyone be waiting like a welcoming home party? Do you see friends who I’ve lost and only knew briefly? Is there a determining factor in who greets you (if all the went into the light and came back people aren’t pulling a hoax the likes of Bigfoot)? Are my relatives and friends going to be playing paper, rock, scissor celestially to figure out who has to come get me? I’m putting in my request now for Mike… So make sure you’re not playing golf with Hendrix that day.
And I am Happy to report my excitement for the future is tremendous.
Posted under gg, O'Leary